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Archive Number 2494

Date: Fri, 17 Jan 2003 09:21:15 -0700
From: Bobby Avstreih
Subject: Re: desert seeds and difficult stories





Dvora wrote to me off-list:

>
>that's not fair, arousing my curiosity. What was the family name of those
>Rishon settlers? We know their names, they are not anonymous.
>Dvora Shurman in Tel Aviv


But, Dvora
That's just the point of my letter to Limor and the group. I don't know
their names or their lives or anything, except a (now dead) self-trained
archeologist named Yakov. I met some of them once in 1966, and now "they"
are just like finding an old photograph in a box that your grandmother had
stored away. You wipe off the dust and wonder what the people in the old
picture have to do with you.

"They" haven't been a part of "my" story until just now. Like my example of
my father's "Yamagata Story". It took 50 years for that seed to sprout. So,
they, too, are those desert seeds, waiting for the right congruence of
time/circumstance/and soil condition (ie. experience) before taking root.
Interesting process! Appropriate to keep in mind when working on gutsy
stories. What is that famous T.S.Eliot quote about "Returning, to know the
place for the first time."?

Is anything about this resonant with your experiences in Rumania, Laura?
Have you read Jonathan Safran Foer's book "Everything Is Illuminated", which
concerns similar researching? There is a beautiful quote that I've wanted to
share with the list for many months. Perhaps now is the time to dig it out:

In his novel, the author is going to Ukraine to find the town and the woman
who saved his grandfather from the Nazis. He hires a 20-something translator
whose father runs the "Tour" company and whose grandfather is their
reluctant driver. The translator, in his strange English, has a
correspondence with the author, Jonathan, concerned about how the author is
portraying his Ukraine family who were caught between unimaginable horror
and greed and the common selfishness of survival.

In this quote, on P.145,the young man writes to the author:
"...(This is why I forgive Father. I do not love him. I hate him. But I
forgive him for everything.) I parrot: Grandfather is not a bad person,
Jonathan. Everyone performs bad actions. I do. Father does. Even you do. A
bad person is someone who does not lament his bad actions. Grandfather is
now dying because of his. I beseech you to forgive us, and to make us better
than we are. Make us good."

Suddenly, the phrase: "the right of return" comes into my mind, followed by
"the Prodigal Son" and Rumi's poem "Come, whoever you are...our's is not a
caravan of despair". And Simon Weisenthal's exploration of forgiveness in
his great book on perspectives: "The Sunflower". And Albert Camus' letter of
protest against the death penalty in 1950's France, "Reflections on the
Guillotine". And the ancient Greek process of ostracisim, and the same
punishment in the Inuit movie, "The Fast Runner".

It all goes back a really long way, I guess, in our human consciousness:
being put out of the group (or, in the "out" group) meant subsistence
survival or death. And yet, the first murderer in our
Jewish/Christian/Moslem mythology, Cain, was not killed and was protected
and enabled to survive, even in his separation. Kinda makes me think about
...something...???...???...'THE RIGHT OF RETURN"...???


I promise, Dvora and Limor, I'll let you know more about my Israeli "desert
seeds" next week.
Bobby




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